Talent

I always think that I do not have any talent.
I can't cook.
I can't do any kind of sport.
I can't play music.
I can't bake.
Sounds pitiful, right? I have been desperately searching for my potential talent. Where is it?
At school, I used to be told that every person has talent, it's just maybe you haven't found out yet or you don't realize it.
Well, I can play piano a little bit (until grade 4, I guess?)
I used to hate piano so much because it was hard to learn classic songs (I'm still thinking the same).
I coaxed my mom to quit my piano course for years. My mom never wants me to stop.
Whenever I went to my piano course, my steps always felt so heavy to enter the room.
I hate going to concert and the exam.
I'm a shy person. I always get nervous when I'm on stage or people look at me.
I want to have a piano course if I don't have to go to a concert or do the exam.
I love to hear piano's sound. Sometimes I do miss piano. Guess I waste my skill, uh?
I think I give up on piano easily.
My mom's friend's daughter also like me.
She was forced to learn piano since little, she hated it, but maybe her parents are more stubborn than mine so they never allow her to quit or she didn't try to coax harder (?) I don't know.
Now she can be a piano teacher. All of the hatred towards piano and hardships, she can pass it through all. It what makes her today.
I hate myself.
Why am I so stupid? Why do I waste my only skill? Why do I give up so easily?
I know it's all my fault. I always blame myself for being so stupid.
I asked my parents that I wanted to have a baking course but they never give me the chance. They said, "What for? You don't like to cook. You rarely go to the kitchen. You don't have the hobby of it."
The impact now that I envy a lot of people who able to cook, play music, bake, and what-so-ever!
What can I do to make me have something special in me?